Over the past three weeks I have lost……. ZERO pounds. After I sprained my ankle I really got off track and wasn’t caring as much. I am allowed 54 points and it seems to be A LOT to me. I was keeping track of my points and I was having about 8-12 points left over every day. That’s not using the 49 extra a week that I get. I was told that I need to eat all my points so I found myself finding stuff to eat at night when I’m not even hungry. So I slowly quit keeping track of my points. I felt it was pointless. Then we went on vacation. I didn’t do terrible on vacation but I didn’t do good either. We took a trip to visit four of my favorite people (Joy and her amazing family). After spending some time with them my family and her family went to Chicago to The Field Museum and then to Gino’s East. My husband, Ben, has talked about Gino’s deep dish pizza for 12 years, ever since I’ve known him. I was so excited about trying this deep dish pizza that I’ve heard so much about and dreading it at the same time. I enjoyed it more than I should have. My goal for this week is to keep track of my points and make better food choices. Exercise…. sigh.
My leg is swelling, the same leg that has the sprained ankle. Doc says to keep it elevated as much as possible but keep if moving, if that makes sense. I’m much too familiar with blood clots since my mother had a pulmonary embolism about 2 ½ years ago and survived. Right now I feel like I can’t really exercise and that is a hindrance on my success. I am going back to the doctor this week to see if I can get approval to even walk a couple miles a day. I plan on buying some weights and doing some upper body work outs until I get the clear for more “fun” exercise.
I am a little disappointed in myself. I’m glad I didn’t gain but it’s still not the direction I want the scale to go. After loosing my motivation I believe my son, Michael (5 years) has re-motivated me big time. This past year I heard about how big my butt and my belly are. I explained to him that it wasn’t nice and it hurt my feelings and he felt really bad. He told me he wasn’t trying to be mean or upset me he was just telling me the truth. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little bit hurt by that. Since Michael and I talked about what kinds of words to use and not use he hasn’t said anything else about my size.
I’m not just in this for myself and my health, I’m also doing this for my three children, my husband and future children. I want to be able to do things with my kids and there were too many things I was not able to do with them on vacation and it broke my heart. I’m going to end on what I am thankful for…. I am thankful for my amazing family, my children, husband, nieces, sister, mom, dad,….. and last but not least, wonderful friends, thank you for being there for me Joy.